So.

I had quite a funny saturday. I invited some friends to visit Orte Undergroung and we had some fun exploring places only me and few other could go. It was a funny adventure, no history or archaeology involved, just enjoing the fun of being in the dark and ten meters underground.

But.

I got home quite confused. With that longing feeling of mine that makes me want that person and that person only though I try to forget him and those feelings. But then I re-run it over again, just falling in the tricks he plays me to fall. And I know it's just a game but can't stop the needing of it to never stop, and wanting it to stop all the same. Like in the past year I almost lost mental sanity with all this and then when I'm out I just go out, friends as we are pretending to be, and start it again, again, again.

I want something I well know I shouldn't even think of