Being away for far too long....
"So I haven't given up, but all my choices my good luck appear to go and get me stuck in an open prison. Now I am trying to break free in a state of empathy. Find the true and inner me, eradicate the schism. No one can take it away from me and no one can tear it apart, 'cause a heart that hurts is a heart that work!" (Placebo - Bright Lights)
Did anyone of you wondered where the hell have I been?
It has been so long since I last had the mood to post something...And the fact is that I had a complete detaching with my cam and had either nothing to post either nothing good to show and sure I wasn't in the mood about being on much.
To take a long speech short, I had a huge breakdown. Seemed like finally all the crap I usually put in the background took it's tool on me. Like all the heartbreak and delusions and stress got the best of me and life sucked out for good. I had that big panic attack on the start of July that almost had the life beaten out of me and just pissed all my friend of, then I got drunk for almost a week straight while in Cyprus for a dipolomatic mission...and then ended up in therapy by the middle of August.
In September I was out for exavations, back to Sardinia, and this was quite the best thing for me. Always drank too much but had people with me and emotions to feel and a guy who could actually follow all my craziness. Going back home after two months of detaching from everything was hard, really, and I had to cope with another rush of depression that I'm still trying to take away.
Besides that, world runs too fast for me and besides trying to keep my sanity I got one thousand billion of things to do such cultural association, my work as waitress, my work as tourist guide, final year in university, researches and so on and on and on....and that just ad to my craziness.
But I think I can say I'm definately back on this blog because I loved it and saved me long ago so, why shouldn't it do that now?
(This pic is from Sardinia yoh!)